WOAH, this thing brings back the memories...

So I got this Subsciption Digest thing when I checked my email a few minutes ago and I was like people still use xanga?!?! I thought ppl were all hung up on myspace or facebook now. w/e So I started reading all the crap I used to think mattered. I guess when your living it (the drama and madness of your life and being around other teens daily who all equally have their own shit to complain and/or deal with) it feels like maybe that is life and it will never end. Well, for those of you still living the life of drama and chaos, I am letting you know it ends. The things you find important now, will change in a month or a year. You change constantly. You update your life daily by the actions you take. In highschool, I hated being around ppl who appeared magnetic to the drama. I wanted it to stay away from me. I had my own shit to deal with. For years my mind was screwed up. I kept away from the drama as much as I could. Anwyay, it was kind of fun to read some of my old posts. I don't need a blog to remember the important things that happen or to communicate with friends. The memories that are important will stick in my head forever and the friends that are important will stick by my side forever. When you graduate highschool, you really begin to see who your true friends are by who keeps in touch.

Life is so unpredictable. I love it. New things happen every week even when its a routine daily. Its great. I am by the one I love almost everyday. We will hopefully move into together by the Summer or sometime next year. Julian is the best thing that could of ever happened to me. He has brought me happiness, love, and taught me more about myself than anyone. He's my best friend and at times the only person I had in this world to turn to. He knows how much I appreciate him and love him b/c  I remind him almost daily. We never fight and thats one of the greatest things about us. I feel bad for the relationships I see and hear about where they just fight over the stupidest things. Sure we disagree on things but its never a big deal. And if we argue than he just hugs me and kisses me to shut me up. I love when he does that. Actually, today is our two year and three month aniversary.

But anyway, my 19th bday is March 5th. I'm going laser tagging. The true friends I mentioned earlier are the ones invited. They know who they are. Well anyway....update ya later in another year or two.  lol

RIP

Lifes lil tricks. (muhahaha)

so some of you may know that with all my past relationships i've never gotten by without cheating (you know, ever since i got cheated on years ago). well i havent cheated on julian but its like the "relationship gods" want me to or something cuz they keep teasing me or i dont know, not teasing but throwing all these curve balls at me and pressuring me to cheat and i have to keep saying no. like there are two guys at work and one is a total jerk who has a g/f but says she doesnt care if he cheats on her and says she says that he can do what he's got to do and that she doesnt care if he messes around with me and i'm like woah buddy., noooooooooo! he's cocky too and i hate cocky guys like him. ok and then the other guy, you know , he's cute and all and he's really nice but we're just friends but he wants to be more but i'm with the love of my life, julian!!! and i told him i have a b/f but he doesnt seem to get the picture and then my brothers g/f , dianna told me all this stuff about him and i believe her cuz she is a trustworthy person and all so i think i just need to tell him straight up to just back off cuz he's like the other guy and not getting it that i'm with someone and not interested in them. but theres the BIG problema. i cant be mean and rude unless they really piss me off cuz then i'll feel bad. so hmm. whatever. we'll see. and then there's this guy at school and i'm not gonna say any names b/c he is a friend and he's been my friend for a few years now and i dont want to hurt his feelings. but he needs to back off too. b/c he hits on me constantly and in front of julian too and its like what the fuck. its disrespectful you know and it pisses me off cuz he thinks he can treat me however he wants and he tells me all this stuff and its like ahhh. but theres no way i can stop him cuz i've been trying for years. i just have to ignore him. then my long time friend/ex b/f  is starting to hit on me too and its like hey, whats up with this?!?! why all of a sudden do these guys come out of no where and want to hit on me now!!?? huff puff. well anywhosy......

i wrote an essay for my first scholarship today!!! yay me... i feel so studious and intelligente! hehe.

julians b-day is on friday......he'll be 18. aww my baby is growing up....lol. i love him so much guys...like you have no idea. its pretty cool and like i'm planning my life around him and its just ahh, cool. i love him!

uhh... grades are okay. still better than average but not as high as i would like. i still want straight A's you know, that'd be way awesome!! i say you know a lot, dont i? haha

hmmsy, let me see what else? i have poison ivy from going thru these woods with julian. but it was worth it.   : ) and umm hmm, i dunno. i guess i'll go. later honey bunnies!!! muah*

ari

and f.y.i.: i got a new cell so ask me for my number at school if you want it. love ya!!

and you know what else i was thinking about...like DUDE! seroiusly...i'm gonna be a freaking effin senior, mofo's, like woah, thats cool. yippy! i cant wait to move out and move on with life. its gonna be so fun!!!

wowzer, it seems like it is always forever and a frickin half when i finally get around to writing in this thing. i remember when i was in middle school, i would write in it everyday, sometimes like two times a day. i would be on xanga all the time and i loved it...i was obsessed. which i suppose its better to be obsessed with xanga rather than other things i've been addicted to.

i dont think ms.gage likes me anymore ...and thats prolly b/c ms.curvey screwed up my scedule and when my madre called to try to get it fixed she had to deal with ms.gage instead cuz ms.curvey was out of town.

but yeah, for the interesting news...umm, v-day is coming up and its weird cuz i used to not care about that holiday and never ever ever ever had a b/f or g/f on that day untill last year. i got with corey on v-day last year and it lasted a month and it was pretty cool. but umm now i'm with julian, as i'm sure i've written in here before. he's awesome and it'll be 3 months for us in like a week. and i'm not talking about old julian, you know the one thats a year younger than me....i'm talking about NEW julian. julian luna, the senior. hmm, yeah.

umm lets see. with grades: i'm doing so much better this semester! i have all a's and a few b's and then one 70 in stupid algebra. err, stupid lynch! but whatever, its cuz i didnt show my work on this one assignment and he gave me a thirty. uhh, whatever. fag whorre! lol, jk, he's nice in his lil dorky way. so yup, how is everybody?

I'm proud to say i'm happy in life right now. i dont know how long it will last but i might as well boast while i can cuz happiness  hasnt ever really visitied me that much in my life so yeah. thanks to everything and everyone who contributed to my happiness. hopefully its not temporary. okie-dokie, i'm gonna go. later gator!

p.s. oh and i've decided i'm gonna opena pet store as my life career. it'll be awesome! hehe. okay, so yeah, bye...

love ya forever and always, even if ya stab me in the back a bagillion times, my love never rots. gotta kill'em with kindness. muhaha. umm, dont ask.

Air-ee-ah-na

something i want the world to know is that i'm not a freakin whorre! or a freakin slut or a hoe or a freakin stupid ass motha fucker! ok?!? kapeesh.....geez?!?!?! just had to get that off my chest. i'm a freakin virgin. how many times do i have to say that. ugh.........

hmmm, well on the brighter side of things....me and julian will be together for four weeks tomorrow. yay me! and blah fuckin blah!